FMP - 3D struggle

I have a real struggle making new 3D work. I made over 100 the last module and didn't touch it since then. Trying it now; it is so hard to get an image that is an addition to the series I already have.

I just keep trying making one every day, as I did these week (the rendering at nights takes unto 16 hours) hoping I will get the same kind of disturbing quality as I had. The third and fifth image do resonate with me.

Having seen a video Len made was confronting with the goals to do this MA. Why go for it?

It started wanting the paperwork for the sake to be able to proof that I had a certain level. The drive to proof myself going back to my youth being a top-sporter and go on for ever. "Mind on zero and go".

In the video Len posted me on "how to become a man" he tells parts of my story. Growing up as a boy between 3 brothers.

Luckily I enjoy making new work, having a deadline, learning new perspectives and the joy of that one image that amazes me, makes me happy. At this moment I am not in that happy place but with working I will get there again. In two days my holidays will start and I can devote all of my time to the MA for a month.